and there was nothing.
nothing left in the end.

zishing
04-12-1992
no preferences
nothing particular.
the place people come to for help.
and that's about it.

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Baka-Tsuki
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Struck
Weird.
I decided to come back again.

Suddenly it just crossed me and I saw.
The reflection of me a long time before.

With someone who would think of me first,
Someone who would just quench my thirst.

For love? I don't know.
What I know and what I've told.

Countless people.

We had fun, we laughed together.
You cried, my thoughts dismembered.

Away from everything else but you.

To this day I still look back,
All these memories, good and bad.

And I just want to shout it out.

You used to call me no. 1.
But really, what reference was that? It must have been some.

Number 1 dork.
Number 1 jerk.
Number 1 idiot.
Number 1 bastard? I guess.

I thought that smile I gave you,
Would last forever.
But you've been frowning ever since,
And all the smiles I see are just plain sadness.

So I just wanna confess.

If you ever ever ever,
Happen to see this.

I thank you,
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Because you've taught me one of life's greatest lessons,
And I was so stupid I never realised.
Till now, but maybe even now.
I don't fully realise it yet.

You taught me how not to be selfish.
Showed me how I was wrong straight in the face.

But I was oblivious. I never knew, I just kept pretending.
In the reality I was just an untied lace.

But you taught me,
And you did at that very cost.

Of your happiness.
Sure, everything that was us and around us was lost.

But you lost happiness.
I just.

Don't know how to express this,
Make me cry if you must.

I just...
Always thought that I sacrificed and no one gave.

But this.
No matter how I look at it or say.

There's no denying,
That you weren't the joyful, happy girl.

You used to be.


And I'm sorry.
I don't know.
Just a sorry won't cut it.

But it's all this,
Miserable being of me has.

Just a sorry,
Pathetic sorry.

To a girl whose heart I took,
Whose heart I broke.

Just because of this foolishness.

I really,
Don't.
Know.

I'm sorry, I really am.


I'd really cry by now.
Rare times.
But what's the point.
When it's all gone away.

If you're reading this, please.
Just answer or something.

Thankyou. (=